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Life of A Feeser

We Have an Announcement To Make

“Go to the depths of God’s promise, and claim whatsoever you will; The blessing Of God will not fail you, His Word He will surely fulfil. How can God say no to something He has promised?”          – Charles H. Spurgeon

For the past year and a half we’ve been praying about what the Lord wants for our family. If where we are is where God has us, and if Phoenix is our forever home. It’s been a long road of tries, failures, contentment, patients, and frustration. But these past 2 months have been nothing but pure joy.  Why you ask? Our prayers have been answered.

We went out to California to see my family for a weekend. We were really itching to get the kiddos to the beach and on the first chance we had we packed up and left for the weekend. Well the beach was great, Seth loved the water and the atmosphere exhausted our little one out. Emerson stayed behind with my parents and had a blast there.

The next day Jase and I went on a date. Now most people have their family close they are able to drop off their kids at their in-laws homes and enjoy their night. Jase and I don’t have that. We have wonderful amazing friends that watch our children, but nothing compares to the joy of dropping off your kids at their grandparents home. If you have that close by, hold it dear. It’s truly a blessing.

We didn’t know what to do really. So from the little town of where my parents live we drove south to Murrieta. With that said we stopped at our old college, grabbed a cup of coffee and talked. Those are the best dates with him. Talking. The subject came up of where God wants us, is it still Phoenix? Is it somewhere else? And as we were walking to the car it hit us… we are supposed to be “here”.  Here meant the Bible College. Here meant California. Where I have been praying for 3 years to bring us back to, but I had NO clue that it would mean the Bible College.

On our 5 hour car ride home we dreamt and joked about how cool it would be how insane it sounds and why. But when we got home doors started opening, and it was as if we couldn’t walk through them fast enough. We took a leap of faith, put in an application and waited. In that time we were leaving for vacation to Ocean City, New Jersey so we had a distraction…so we thought. We wound up getting a phone call saying there is a position available and if we wanted it, it was ours. But we decided to do a 24 hour road trip and meet face to face about the position. We got back from vacation the 13th which was a Sunday night. That Thursday we packed and headed back to CCBC praying this was what we were supposed to do. We met bright and early, and we left with a job. That night we came back to Phoenix and waited. We waited patiently…mostly impatiently, for a month. Those were the longest 4 weeks of our lives. Not knowing if housing was going to fall through we took another leap of faith and put our notice in for our apartment. That’s when it became real; we had our home on the line. If the Lord closed the door we had to figure something out.  Again, we waited. Yesterday we got our answer:

We, the Feeser family will be moving to Murrieta, California August 29. We will be living and serving on campus in whatever needs the college has for us to do. We will be trading in our 3 bedroom 2 bathroom apartment to a dorm room with a bathroom, trading in our kitchen, for a cafeteria, and well trading 115 degree weather for well, not 115. All this with two children under the age of 2. Some will think we are crazy, some won’t understand but The Lord promised this to us that day we had our date.

This is something we have to do. We will miss all of our friends; we will miss our church family. We are leaving with the support from those close to us, and most of all the support from our Pastor Mark Martin we wouldn’t be able to do this without you. It is bittersweet for everyone; we are leaving with heavy hearts. But all we ask is for you to be praying for our family as we are being sent on this mission and pray for the students on campus to learn more than they expected.

We will be posting about a “see-ya-soon” party with in the next week. So, I hope you all will be available to come. Thank you so much for loving our family, and for being there every step of the way.

And here you thought I was pregnant again. 😉

“He has given us His very great and precious promises” 2 Peter 1:4

Love, The Feeser’s

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3 ingredient Paleo pancakes

With it being so muggy and rainy out here in Phoenix I felt like making some pancakes for breakfast this morning. I haven’t had pancakes for about a month. We had them almost every day for vacation and they were wonderful…not grain free but still so delish. So as I was rummaging through my pantry I saw my large bag of Coconut flour and off went an idea. It had to be simple. I like simple, and came up with this! I hope you enjoy them as much as we did. My son kept asking for “more”, so that’s saying something! 

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the best GF pancake mix If you aren’t ready to take the Paleo leap 🙂 (Sprouts and Wholefoods has this as well) http://www.amazon.com/Namaste-Foods-Gluten-Pancake-21-Ounce/dp/B000LKZA36/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1407955155&sr=8-1&keywords=namaste+pancake

The easiest Paleo pancakes you’ll ever make. Seriously, and they are toddler approved.

What you’ll need:

  • 2 TBS Organic Coconut flour
  • 1 TSP cinnamon
  • 4 Eggs
  • Coconut oil for greasing the pan

Method:

  • Wisk (or I use my mixer) and mix until smooth texture.
  • Warm up your pan with some of your oil
  • Spoon out 2 TBS of batter ( or however big you’d like the cakes) and wait for the sides to become rounded enough to flip. I had my pan at about a medium heat and it took me about a minute in total for each cake.
  • And serve!

It makes about 8 toddler sized pancakes. I haven’t tried making adult sized ones yet 😉 you can get creative and add mashed banana in the batter, strawberries or even the famous blueberry pancakes. Use your favorite butter, ours is Earth Balance, and you have lovely fast pancakes that are actually good for you. And I mean, look how pretty they came out. 

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Happy baking!

It’s baking time. My favorite.

I’ve made this bread twice this week! The second loaf is almost out. Thanks to my almost 2 year old, who loves it for lunch with some peanut butter on top! MMMhmm!

I’ve played with many recipes but this one is by far my favorite, and so simple to make. It comes from my all-time favorite go-to book Against all Grain by Danielle Walker. Want to purchase the book? You can click here, get it fast and get your Paleo cooking on

 http://www.amazon.com/Against-All-Grain-Delectable-Recipes/dp/1936608367/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1407859105&sr=8-1&keywords=against+all+grain

From Danielle’s book this is usually made in our home more than I’d like to confess to. It’s just so good we can’t help ourselves. And the convenience of having all the ingredients on hand is perfect. If you have her book this recipe can be found on page 236.

Prep Time: 12 minutes   Cooking time: 40 minutes    Yield: 1 loaf or 12 muffins

You’ll need:

  • Coconut Oil for greasing the pan
  • 1 cup of shredded zucchini
  • 1 ½ cups of blanched almond flour
  • 2 TSP of cinnamon
  • ¾ TSP baking soda
  • ½ TSP sea salt
  • ½ TSP nutmeg
  • 3 eggs, beaten
  • ¼ cup of honey (I used a Buckwheat honey my MIL got for me locally in PA. DELISH!)
  • 1 ripe banana

Method:

  • Preheat oven to 350* F. lightly grease an 8 ½-by- 4 ½ inch loaf pan and place a piece of parchment paper on the bottom
  • Place shredded zucchini between 2 pieces of paper towels, squeezing lightly to release excess moisture. (I did this then over my cutting board laid it out evenly and let it sit until I was done mixing all my ingredients together. I found it helped a lot better than letting it sit in the paper towel, and the bread didn’t have to bake longer than the 40 minutes needed)
  • Place dry ingredients into a small bowl.
  • Place eggs, honey, and banana in the bowl of a stand mixer and beat on medium for one minute until frothy and combined. Then add zucchini and beat again to incorporate, about 15 seconds. ( I used my hand mixer on level 5 then when I added the zucchini I went up to about a 7 for 15 seconds)
  • With the mixer running, slowly add the dry ingredients until they have all been incorporated
  • Spoon with the batter into the prepared pan or a 12 cup muffin pan lined with paper cups, filling each cup 2/3 full
  • Bake loaf for 40 minutes, until the middle is set and a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean. Bake muffins for 30-35 minutes.

Thanks to this book and it being so yummy it’s hard to say “no” to my husband and son when they ask for me to make it.

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Happy Baking!

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What if Bottle is best?

In honor of World Breast Feeding Week I’d like to take a moment and applaud you momma’s who weren’t able to breast feed. You’ve worked hard and did the best for your children, you have not failed, you have not shamed motherhood, and you have not given up. You did the best that you could do in that moment and that is the RIGHT thing to do. Either way, boob or bottle we feed our children. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. And as you can see from the picture above of my kids, they are way beyond healthy 🙂

The competitions between Mothers need to stop, the judging needs to stop. You don’t know the story of why that mom nurses without a cover, it could be because her child hates it, or her child absolutely refuses to take a bottle. And you don’t know the story of why that mom is using formula. It could be she wasn’t able to produce despite what remedies midwives and consultants tried.

My story is I wasn’t able to nurse both my kids. I was ashamed with my first born, I felt like I failed as a mother. I couldn’t feed my child the way that nature intended. We saw multiple consultants, did all the supplements, did EBF and I thought he was getting fed. Until we took him to the Dr. and his pee was bright orange. He was dehydrated and I had no idea. I heard the words that I never wanted to hear and I had to put him on a high calorie formula to have him gain weight. As soon as Seth got a hold of that bottle he gulped down the milk as if he was starving.

Things were going great until about month 4 when he started vomiting after every meal… we tried COUNTLESS formulas, many remedies and I finally just gave up and took him to our Naturopath. She didn’t even have to examine him, all she said was he has a milk protein allergy. She could tell by the eczema, the cradle cap, and how he refused to eat. I thought it was all natural baby stuff when it was all outer symptoms of the milk intolerance. We left with a goat’s milk formula recipe. It looked SO daunting. All these ingredients and I was responsible for making it right. I got home; Jase and I ran over to the local Sprouts and got all of the ingredients. Since then we’ve never had a throwing up problem, or stomach cramps. It was miracle milk.

Side note: did you know that goat’s milk formula is almost identical to breast milk? They are so close nutritionally it’s pretty awesome

Things were different with Emerson. With Emerson she was born at 36 weeks due to my medical conditions I had with her being pregnant. (Cholestasis, gestational diabetes – that was due to my RA steroids keeping my pain level down, Placenta Previa, and bed rest at 26 weeks on because of pre-term labor.)  So if you can imagine everything going wrong, I had it, but my daughter was healthy and safe so it didn’t matter.

At 36 weeks my c section was scheduled due to having a previous emergency C-section with Seth and being that my kids are 13 months apart I had to have another one. We found out when Emmy was born she was breeched and had the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck 3 times. She was immediately rushed to the NICU I barely saw her. I had no idea what she looked like. My husband followed her and I had to wait until they were done with me so I could see my baby. Em had respiratory distress, couldn’t be held, and was only eating out of a tube in her mouth or up her nose. We couldn’t hold our newborn until 24 hours later. Even then she still had the CPAP machine on her so I couldn’t even see what she looked like. When we left the hospital we left with no baby…she was there for a week learning how to eat and breathe on her own. We were there by her side as much as we could.

When her weight started declining they had to put her on a high calorie  formula for preemies to help gain her weight back. She was released to come home and we had no problems with the formula until again about month 3-4. I automatically switched her to goat’s milk and I’ve had nothing but a happy baby since.

I’ve recommended this formula to many mothers that have asked me for help. I can’t even count how many I have helped now. But if I can speak for them, they haven’t had any other problems with their kid’s bellies.

So with that being my story, I don’t feel like I failed. I’m feeding my kids the best way I can and for some people breast isn’t always best. Don’t let Breast Feeding Week make you feel like a failed mother, don’t let it define who you are, and don’t let it shame you. You are a wonderful human being who does nothing but right for her children. Feed your baby proudly no matter what you use.

If you have any questions about anything please feel free to ask, I’m not a Dr. But I’d be happy to help as much as I can.

To see what recipe I used click here:

http://www.mtcapra.com/discover-how-this-homemade-goat-milk-infant-formula-changed-my-daughters-life/

Eat like a cave woman

I’ve been off gluten for 4 years, it was before the fads were in and all the hipsters were doing it. What made me go off of it was my health. At 19 I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis which is one of many autoimmune diseases, and was automatically put on an anti-inflammatory medication.  I remember walking out of the room with a prescription in my hand and my boyfriend (now amazingly awesome husband) sitting patiently waiting for me. My world had just been rocked. I went from being an outgoing teen to a 19 year old that could barely function and get out of bed because of pain. The meds that they put me on made me groggy and worse than the pain level of 30 on a scale level of 1-10. So I decided to take my health into my own hands with the help of family and the lovely internet.

One thing that I read was that gluten is an inflammatory in the body. I had nothing else to lose; I was already lactose intolerant so taking gluten away wasn’t as big of a deal as I thought. WRONG.

First off: what is gluten? Many people who go gluten free don’t even know what it is. So I’ll let Google explain: “Gluten is a general name for the proteins found in wheat (durum, emmer, spelt, farina, farro, KAMUT® khorasan wheat and einkorn), rye, barley and triticale. Gluten helps foods maintain their shape, acting as a glue that holds food together. Gluten can be found in many types of foods, even ones that would not be expected”  thanks http://celiac.org/

When you go off of gluten you really take into perspective how much food and or products that have gluten in it. Tooth paste, shampoo? I’m serious. Check your labels. I’ll admit I’m a label snob. And I’d rather eat in than go out.  I’ve taken to many peoples words for it and haven’t been able to move for days or your stomach hurts so bad that you can’t eat, or the dreaded migraine that would last for days.

So with that said I went off of gluten. I cleaned up my eating habits, it took me about 4- 5 months to start feeling a difference in pain but after that I went into remission for 2 years. Then babies happened, after each child my RA came back worse. (Almost 6 months PP with Emerson and I’m STILL recovering) After we had Emerson my body started attacking itself more. Because once you have an autoimmune disease you are more prone to developing another one without your knowledge. So it is important to regularly see your Dr for blood work even if you take it into your own hands or not.

ANYWAY that was a bunny trail; I could go on and on. After Emerson I started Paleo. My RA came back so bad that I couldn’t function. It took all my energy to just feed her and change her, not to mention having a 13 month old as well. And I had to do something.

Thankful for my loving husband with his support and encouragement and the wonderful Against All Grain book and blog by Danielle Walker; we’ve been Paleo for almost 3 months now. I can feel a difference in my joint pain, my grogginess, and my attitude toward recovery.  It also helps lose the baby weight as well! I will be posting both gluten free and Paleo recipes in this blog along with many other things.

I can’t wait to share all my recipes with you!

Check out Danielle Walker here: I know you’ll love it!

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Hardship.

I’ve always wanted to be a Mom. 

Even at a young age I wanted to be a Mom. I never fully understood what it meant to be a Mom as in the “job description” but I knew I had a wonder example of what a Mom should be. That was from my own Mother and I wanted to be just like her. 

Jason and I got married at the young age of 21 and 20. We knew that we were going to have a family right away from how baby crazy we were. Our “plan” was to wait 3 to 4 years before we started a family but the Lord had other plans and decided that 10 months was good too. 

We had our son Seth Everett a year later, and loved him instantly. He was worth everything we went through to have him. And then we left the hospital with him, that’s where motherhood started… We were to cater and love this tiny 6 pound boy with all of our hearts. 

No one told us about how difficult it was to love this little person when he wouldn’t sleep, he wouldn’t nurse, when he had stomach problems frequently and we didn’t know why, when we wouldn’t sleep but you still had to be energetic when he was up. I knew it was easy to love him on his good days, but no one told me about the bad ones. No one told me that I would want to scream outside out of frustration, or that it was okay to feel like you want to give up. To be angry because you don’t sleep or feel like you’re getting enough of it. But I did know for a fact that I loved him despite the hardships. I loved him and he loved me. 

At Seth’s 4 months I took a test. It came up positive. I’m pregnant. I laughed and cried, waited for my wonderful husband to come home to share the news. We rejoiced and couldn’t wait to meet him or her. A week later we mourned. We lost our child and we couldn’t do anything about it.

No one tells you how hard it is to loose something you love so much and you’ve never even met them. Only though Prayer and Jesus’ strength is how we got through that one. Having a 4 month old also helps to heal the pain. It still hurts. 

2 months later I couldn’t believe it. We were pregnant again. This time it was hard to get excited. It was more scary this time because you don’t want to go through that loss again. But each month we went in there was a heart beat and a strong one. And then we found out it was a girl, our whole world was complete. She was a fighter from day one. But then it hit me. 

How am I going to do this.

How are we going to do this? 

We didn’t know what Jesus was doing in our lives, or why so soon we had another miracle on its way. But we did, we got excited, and treated every day as if we were expecting our first child. Belly pictures galore, kept all the ultrasounds in order, kick counts. You name it we recorded it with her big brother apart of everything. 

26 weeks came, and bleeding started. We couldn’t go through this again, we weren’t ready to let go. So we went in to get checked found out I was in labor and she was healthy, moving and acting as if nothing was affecting her. We were in the hospital for a week, Seth got a week of partying with Nana and Papa. They got my contractions down and I was on lovely bed rest until 36 weeks when we met our little Emerson Jayce.

She had the cord wrapped around her neck 3 times, breeched, and was in respiratory distress. I didn’t even get to see her she was rushed to the NICU so fast. Jason got to go with her thankfully, and I was left to finish off my C-section with loving Dr’s and nurses. We couldn’t hold Emerson for 24 hours. Her body couldn’t handle it. But as soon as I got her in my arms I was in tears instantly. Jason didn’t want to let her go. But we had to. We had to go home with out a baby and leave her there to get the best care.

A week later she was cleared to come home. We sped down the freeway in order to just have her next to us.

Once we got home to our 13 month old and showed him his sister, he was loving at first and then realized she was staying. He wasn’t too stoked about that. He had a pretty bad tantrum and eventually got over it. The trick is to keep the oldest involved. He helps, change, feed, clean, and reads to her now. She’s his best friend and they keep each other busy.  

We now have an almost 2 year old in December and a 5 month old. Yes, like every one says, we do have our hands full. But we wouldn’t change it for the world. 

God has always made it an adventure for us and we don’t know why. But we are following Him and what He wants for us as a family. Trusting Him in all things. We might not understand why things are the way they are now, but when we look back we learn ” Oh, that is what he was trying to teach me” and then it all makes sense. My desire is to really be open, to share, to hold nothing back and to encourage others. 

Hug your children today. Thank God for them. When you have a ton of stuff to do in the house, just stop, enjoy them. Cleaning can wait, they change and grow so fast, be apart of it. Cherish every moment.

I can’t wait to share all of my adventures with you. 

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